Absence

When I don't publish any entries for a while it's usually because I'm either having a really good time, or a really terrible time.  My recent absence is a result of both.  The week before last I went to Spain again and had a wonderful time.  Last week I was busy catching up with jobs and work from my week off.  On Sunday morning my Dad didn't turn up for Sunday lunch.  I called down to his house and found him collapsed.  He had taken an overdose of sleeping tablets (deliberately).  He is now in hospital recovering.  Fortunately the tablets he took don't cause any lasting effects, although we're not sure how many he took, and so we don't know how long it will take him to recover.  It seems he has had enough.  He doesn't want to go on without my Mum and his health issues are becoming too much of a strain for him.  I feel numb.  I can't begin to express how I feel, and so I'll end here.  I'm sure the feeling will come back - I just deal better practically if I don't let the emotion through; and that's what I need to do right now.